I don't know how to feel right this moment..I was so happy for a while, me and Flik were together, but now he's run off. He and Dante had broken up, and Flik had come to stay with me, and said he wanted to be with me now...but I screwed it up only two days in. Flik was out with his friends and they said things..they..well..shouldn't have said...I'm so embaressed. ): I can't even explain how embaressing this is...I want to find him though. I'd like to apologize, or explain...but I can't find him, and I'm so worried. God looking him in the eye after this is going to be hell D: Well..if I even get to...sigh...where is he?

No time for a hiccup log tonight..! I have to find him.

Bleck, I'm so tired. I haven't slept in like three or more days...I feel like my eyes are going to fall out. I keep forgetting things..forgot to tell Dante where his brother is..forgot to tell Flik about..uh..stuff..and..god. I'm just so bloody /tired/. I have to take a break from this work stuff...so I'm just sitting here at home, looking up videos. Trying to relax..there are an amazingly lot of hiccup videos out there ._. but not enough...I find. I mean...I guess most people just don't find them reliavent?  They're so amusing though...so light and such, you know..something better to focus on then..well..dark stuff. And dark stuff is all around everywhere..even in my best friends life, and that's kind of sad. But I can't much help beyond what I have, anyway. So I just sit here and watch these things...see whats up with my kids myspace pages and stuff. I mean not simutaneously, but I will check em later...I like to keep track of those little munchkins..so young. I can't believe they already got their own pages. Mn..oh well. Anyway.

Hiccup Log:
1: Short, frequent spasms, so fast can't even drink any water, kinda makes it seem like I'm nodding alot.
2: One big one, echoed, kinda hurt the chest, and made my neck go in far.

And that's all D: I guess even my hiccup maker is tired..

Hmm, well, Flik's back home, that's pretty nice. I'm glad to see him get back in the US okay, though they never told me how he did it, really..he's just here. I have to assume legally, they wouldn't have let him through customs otherwise. I missed him really, its been a rough little while..got in an accident with my partner, our car crashed..I thought he was going to fly through the window but thank god he didn't. Stupid..wasn't even wearing a seat belt, what the hell is that..? A cop, not wearing a seat belt? Honestly. Anyway..he's okay again now, broke some bones and all but he's in a wheel chair and about yet again. Scared the hell out of me...oh well..bad things happen sometimes I guess, but I don't want to lose a partner that way );
I went to see Flik a little while ago anywho, I saw him when he got home from Germany and he was in pretty bad shape, kinda upset too, over that..guy. The purple haired fellow...Dante's brother. Jerk's always around it seems like but I'm going to fix that as best I can, legally..already started that course of action. ;D just have to get to go through now, shouldn't be too hard, considering his history..hm? Oh..right..I guess I shouldn't be discussing this here. Anyway. Yea, I was at Flik's birthday party..last night and it was great. I like meeting his friends, they're all very nice. Mostly I like being around Flik though, he's such a sweet guy, and he always gets these big hiccups, like 'hulp!' or 'heecup!' But they're really loud so its more like 'HUUC!'..heh, they make me laugh..ahem..yea..and..well, Dante sort of pointed it out last night..embarrassed me..he also got into a big hissy fit later on when he found me and Flik alone in the bathroom..as if there's something going on between me and Flik. Yea, I /wish/ there was, really. I hate being alone. ): It was nice for a while coming home to Flik being there (once nude! O:) but now my place is all empty and stupid. Sigh..I invite Turner over for dinner sometimes but I can only do that so much before he really starts thinking I'm gay..I think he's already kinda..well..thinking that way anyway..Flik's party was sort of gay, after all..with the big penis cake and rainbow stuff..cross dressers, and the like. I can't help that my friends are very gay!! One of Flik's friends likes hitting on me too...what am I sposed to make of that, really..? I guess its nice to have some interest still shown.

Annywho, hiccup log, short one this time guys, I never got to record the big set I had when I was at Flik's the other day..after we had an eating contest. Sad. ):
1: Long, weird one...mixed with a yawn so it went sort of high pitched at the end. Like 'hueec!' or something.
2: Three short, fast ones, made me shake some with each..kinda hurty, actually. Right at the center of my chest again.
3: Random few, when I singing along to the radio, they were louder, almost Flik style..but not quite. Something like 'hock!' Made my stomach tense.

Mn, I must get video of Flik hiccuping! I guess thats my current quest..aside from making sure Dante doesn't kill me.

Slow time again at work...how's everyone doing today? I'm having an at-desk day, feeling too flu-ish today to be on patrol duty. Which is fine...I like being here some. Well, when things are happening. Anyway, yea, got the flu somehow..and getting the hiccups some too, which is alright. Hell I wish I had them more often C: even though its more amusing when Flik gets them..or someone else like that. Can't complain one way or another, I guess. Still keepin track of em, too, :D haha. I know I'm strange. But they amuse me.

Hiccup log
1: Small, mostly just the movement then the sound, chest moves and neck tenses, happens few more times.
2: One big one, kinda hurts, deep and hard to breath during, like a weird jumpy holding of breath.
3: Baby hiccup almost, sounds like 'heec', makes my head bob back and throat tighten up..hehe, that sounded silly D:

This is my first entry here, obviously. I'm used to posting stuff online but not a journal necessarily :P Hmm. Works slowed down for the moment so I can type, Flik's gone off to Germany...kinda miss him, really, I haven't seen him in quite a while now. I'm not very good at being away from him for long it seems like, heh. But I got no excuse to fly over to Germany, or anything..no cop-duty that requires that..Eh, I just hope he's alright. Dante's gone off now too seemingly...just as well. Oooh~ Donuts, hold on.

Anyway. I'll be getting my kids again this weekend and I guess we'll be going to the beach, maybe I'll take them to Coney's island or something. I will this summer anyway, and the museum...they'd love that. Wonder if Flik like's museums too..well, if he can even get back here. ): My partner thinks I'm retarded for worrying over him like I am but, I guess he just doesn't know what its like. Turner's a little odd anyway, he's kinda laid back but in a...I don't know what kind of way. He's laid back, but I hate talking to him. He doesn't buy the right kind of coffee, for one, and he's always eating crackers in the car..getting crumbs everywhere. Bastard. But at least he's not as whiny as the other partners I've gotten in the past. Mn, anyway..should get back to work I guess. I'm keeping track of my hiccups here too :P so don't mind the below part, its just for me.

Hiccup 1: random, like a bubble coming up in my throat but not getting all the way up. Felt it in my stomach, can still feel it in my throat kinda even now that its gone. Weird.

Hiccup 2: loud, jumping, surprising. Felt it in my neck and stomach again, starting in the stomach moving up.

3, 4, 5: three in a row, like a weird wave effect thing. 3 and 4 being stronger then 5..

6: Like the first, except bigger. Almost hurt it was so deep down. Can still feel it, made me bounce and all, neck tense, and tummy twitched.

Hehe ~ Hiccups. :D